Ielemientje

Hello everyone! It's been a while...and mostly more journals than art lately I'm so stupid ehehehehe;;

Hello there all my watchers!

In my last journal I stated that I was diagnosed with glandular fever and that I was going to be sick for months. This has been 3,5 months ago.

I have finally returned to school(as of 2 weeks ago) and I am doing rather well. I do have little "fall-backs"  in the illness. I've been sick yesterday and the day before that because of those little fall-backs. It's not great, but hey, it works!

So to sum it up, I am back! My illness is not gone but it's been going better and I am able to do things like I used to. I was working on some things while I was sick; those things will need to wait as school is taking up all my time right now. I can still pass the year and do what I want to do, but it will require me to work hard. So I really need to do that~

There is only 4 weeks of school left. I have been sick for a very long time. But I know that somehow, I can make it! I can work hard, I have this ability to do so, and I can make it. I can do all the things I've missed, I can catch up and hand in my assignments. I (for once) have faith in myself. I'm really glad my illness got better, and I hope I will continue to grow and that it will go away completely. Maybe then I can do something, or learn something from this experience. Being home for so much time is hard.
It also has its positive parts; I played a lot of games and I made some new friends on the internet. I also learned to spend my time differently and on things I would never have spent time on before. I also read a lot of books again; so in some way, it might also have been good for me.

Don't expect art from me yet! Maybe I'll post a few doodles, but they will mostly be posted on my art blog (www.ielemientje.tumblr.com). I hope to see and talk to everyone soon (: Summer vacation is so close, and then I need to catch up on some things but I will also have time when I am not sick.

So, cya later8D<3 Thanks to people supporting and being very kind to me! Cya!

ALSO EDIT EDIT:
a week ago I went camping with my boyfriend and a friend. This was because of school. We had to do something for the 'community' which means doing work for free for one week straight for some people. This may include cleaning gardens, helping at the vet, cooking for old people AND SO ON. We had to make a banner(some sort of poster) for a big park. This park is for people who have a mental handicap. About 200 people with a handicap live there, and around 200-300 come there every day to spend their time. They have a lot of things; their own shop, pub, church and so on! It really is a different community
As it was a far travel, they offered us the possibility to camp there(the place also has an old camping place; who would've guessed x] ) and well, as it was a far travel and we thought it would be funny, we went! We really had quite the experience there; the people there are very kind and special. They let us see the park and enjoy ourselves aside from the work we had to do. It was a really beautiful park
So in this time, I made a quick aftermovie. You can give it a look here;
www.youtube.com/watch?v=QmEKq2…
Our projects name was Project 466, hence the name haha x] It was really quite beautiful and the people there were so grateful and happy with us, that it made us very happy too.
Long story short; it was amazing. If you have any cool questions about it, just ask ^_^
Cya!

Derp, hello people~

Soooo, I'd figure I'd keep my watchers updated on the situation. 2 weeks ago, I had a blood test, and the conclusion wassssss....
Glandular fever.
For those of you who don't know it, it's also called pfeiffer(mostly in the Netherlands hahaha;; )  and it's an illness that can last for months. It can take MONTHS before you get better.

What does it do? It makes one very tired, but a different type of tired than 'OhIneedMoresleep-tired'. For example, I can sleep as much as I want, but I'll still be very tired. I can't do anything, as it will wear me out so much, and I need to rest a lot. This will keep me home for months.
I can't even draw anymore.
It just takes up too much.

And that is what hurts the most for me I think. Not the fact I'll be failing my year(or at least, the chances are high), not the fact I cannot see my friends and how incredibly lonely I'll become, not anything like that at all. No. Drawing will cost me energy, it will make me tired, it will wear me out, I cannot draw even if I seriously want to and THAT is what hurts the most . It's annoying, frustrating, saddening.

So how long will this take? Honestly? I really don't know. The fact is, nobody does.
Details of the blood examination showed that I have this disease REALLY badly, and it might not even have reached its peak yet. But for what they are counting..it's in months. Yes. They are thinking it will take months before I'll actually get better. This could be one month, maybe 3, it could even take a year. They really don't know. It depends on my body. And my body, at the moment , is absolutely nothing.
I'll be sick during easter, I'll be sick on my birthday, I can no longer hang out.
And there is no cure.
The only cure is waiting it out.

So it's a quite depressing situation. On the other hand , I can read, sleep, game, watch movies, series and anime as much as I want. But I'm not sure if it weighs up to the rest. Not like it matters, I will have to find peace with it because I won't get rid of this. Hopefully I'll just get better soon.

I'm going to write some people some letters so I can stay in touch in a way that I can also spend time without using the internet; I don't want my friendships to be relied on by the internet , as most of them are right now. Maybe writing is a fun way to still stay in touch. Maybe I can draw a little bit too that way. I don't know.


So , this is the update!! Kind of depressing xD Life will be boring, and kind of lonely i suppose. I will go on tumblr a lot ;D So be sure to follow me if you haven't yet! steam-powered-zelda-hearts.tum…
If you want to know more about my situation , or my illness, just ask. I'm not afraid to answer

Cya around8D

Good day everyone~ Another journal woo what is this nobody even reads these but I don't care;;


So for those who do not know: I have been sick. For almost 4 weeks now. And nobody can figure out what I have.
I went to the doctor twice, and they told me I probably had a flu and then caught a throat infection straight after that. The medicines they gave me don't really help though.
But they refuse to test me for anything serious, like the pfeiffer disease (en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Infectio…) or anything else I could have. They think it won't matter if I'd have it, because there is no cure for the disease except resting up well.

So it's been very lonely. I spend my days behind my computer, in my bed or on the couch, and I just...watch stuff. I just hope I'm getting better. I talk to my classmates sometimes, but hardly. It's really tough for me.
At the moment, the fever went, I'm slowly eating, but I'm still tired and my throat still hurts. I can hardly go anywhere without feeling so extremely tired that I need some rest. Even after this journal, i'll probably be tired.

Also, today , my boyfriend came over. That was really nice, because he had something for me. My classmates made a BIG drawing for me (done by nienkiepinkie ) and it was a drawing of Kaoru and Hikaru Hitachiin , and a lot of classmates left some sweet messages on it that they wanted me to get better and that I was missed<3 I felt really loved, thank you so much everyone! That made my day so much, it made me feel so happy and warm on the inside and I'm glad you guys did not forget about me. I love you ;w; <333333

So, what does this have to do with art?
Well, I cannot draw. I'm too tired to. Sometimes I play a game but I sleep afterwards, it's a problem thehehee; So until I'm better, I cannot draw anything for anyone and it's such a problem waah;; I'm so far behind on school and on kiriban drawings and I can't even do anything about it, I'm soooo tired. Urghh problemsss;;; I'm gonna craiiii
This does make me active on tumblr though! So follow my reblogging blog if you want: funny-weird-stuff.tumblr.com/ , I reblog whatever I like tehehehhee

So uhh;; i hope to be better soon! People say that next weekI hsould be better, but it could take another week. Nobody knows what the heck I have so there is no real cure. I'm slowly going better they say, but i still feel tired at whatever I attempt, but I feel I should get better so I keep trying but I fail so hard;;; that's why they think I'm getting better, because I try. But 4 weeks of,  being sick is a bit much for me.

Also, during that time, I went to germany! On vacation, in der Harz. It's so beautiful there, and it was all up in the mountains, AND THERE WAS SNOW TILL MY KNEES OKAY SNOW TILL MY FREAKING KNEES. It was so much fun! I don't go skiing or snowboarding, but I went sleighing of a 365m high mountain and DAYUM THAT WAS PRETTY AMAZING SHIT YO;;; sadly enough, that day I alreayd felt extremely sick and I had trouble staying warm so I didn't enjoy it as much. But Germany was fun, i'd love to go again when I feel less sick!

I'll finish all my assignments(paid assignments and school work comes first, sorry ) soon, when I'm better, and hopefully I can post more art. Otherwise, check my art blog. (link is in my ID)

Sorry for longness Thanks for reading amazing people ;D *gives cookie*

Cya!!

Hello thereee~ Again journal spam lol

Soo, I haven't been THAT active recently, only uploading one artwork out of the 3 I kind of have to do--- and then there's secret sinterklaas too and school and ohmylawd sobusy---

I will try to finish these in time, but at the moment I'm out of inspiration and that's kind of tough.
I have one commission to draw, one art trade I should of finished like A YEAR AGO and a kiriban and also secret sinterklaas. Add up this project from school I'm super busy on and then you have a lot of trouble.

I've been seriously tired lately, and my boyfriend has told me to get myself tested for pfeiffer. It's a sickness where you are real tired, you can't do anything etc. It's pretty sucky because it means you can't go to school (or do anything really) for at least 2 months TT____TT. I'm kinda scared to go though...but I'm very tired and well..it does not seem normal atm. I can't handle the stress.
It's kind of bothersome, because for school I have this project to work on and it's really fun, but also bothersome because it's so much work. I have only 2 weeks left to finish it with my group and we're BY FAR not done yet---so it all keeps piling up.



I will try to finish stuff as soon as I can, but at the moment, it seems life will not give me rest.
I must do so many things.
Like, way too many.
And I'm always too tired to draw after school because i finish real late and return around 6 in the evening. At school , I must draw a lot and I work really hard, so I'm always tired. And inspiration simply won't strike me.

I'm really sorry for all people, adn for the person that caught my kiriban ITOTALLYFORGOTIMSORRYDON'THATEMEIMJUSTSOSTRESSED

I will work hard, I promise. As soon as I will find energy and inspiration, I will finish stuff up. Really.


In other news on life: Stuff's been going okay. I have fun a lot, which takes my mind off from all the stress. School takes up most of my time so gaming hardly is an option. I'm happy when I can play one or two games of LoL once every 3 weeks---imagine how busy it is!
Sinterklaas is coming up soon, and I hope I will get Pokemon Black or White 2 so I have more stuff to keep my mind off from stress. I still need to finish up my surprise but I have a good idea so I hope it'll be okay. Sleeping has been less though--I haven't been sleeping well lately and I can't figure out why I just can't sleep. I'm guessing it's the stress. Does anyone have any hints or tips for that, except taking pills? ;D That would be amazing. I try to keep up really, and I try to talk to everyone and stay active at the MAT-hyves but as you can see it's not really working---


And I'm kind of dissapointed because my art work 'A quiet afternoon' fav.me/d5ll17n got so little views and love while I was so proud of it T_T Too bad lol x] Can't have everything.

How has everyone been doing? C; Been busy too? Tell me about it if you haven't already on skype and stuff